Purplerainskye, 49

Fat But Fabulous I realize I am not the typical woman. I am fat. Just happened over a period of time, and Im working on losing some of it, but I know that I deserve to be loved too. Doesnt everyone?
I have a heart, emotions and am capable of loving someone.
My grandmother was fat, and my Grandfather was not, but they were together 50 plus years until my Grandfather died.
Thats what I want. Someone who can love me no matter what. Though Im not the best looking woman, that shouldnt matter if I have a pure heart that is willing to give all my love to someone, and never hurt them.
I dont deserve to be walked on, treated like a piece of garbage, or to be used.
I want a lasting relationship with someone who isnt going to run out on me every time they think they see something better.
I need stability, honesty, happiness, and I am willing to give that back in return, if I am just given the chance.
Dont think I have been alone forever...no, someone did love me once. For 11 years he loved me, until he decided to find someone else, I just wasnt good enough for him anymore.
I want to be good enough again. I want to feel special to someone again.
Will I ever?