Mrsalone, 48

just here for friends, i desperately need someone Im not sure really what i want ultimately. Im in an unhappy marriage that is extremely stressful. Im looking for someone who can chat/talk/email and maybe meet later I really don't know where it will go. For now my situation is not open for change. Im not leaving my husband for anyone. I hope this is clear. Im extremely lonely and in desperate need of companionship. I have tried to talk to and be with my husband but he seems uninterested in me. I am a professional white female. I will not post a photo on here but will email one to you after we talk a bit. I have been big boned I guess u could say all my life. I was that" fat cheerleader" for years in high school but stayed extremely active in sports and healthy practices. I've been in a failed marriage and now im in another. Im sure you can guess that kids are the reason for staying, and you would be correct. I am now overweight and ashamed of it but also need love too. Perhaps if I get over the shame and find some beauty again in my life perhaps the quality of life would improve for me. I never thought I was half bad/looking either, but I guess the lack of compliments and the lack of interest from your spouse can really put a dent in your self esteem. Anyways hopefully I meet someone nice to talk to. Sorry for being so long winded but that's what im here for, I really need a friend.
p.s. im not here for sex