Brokenartist, 34

for once in my life i am afraid i've always had that one person to lean on but he abondoned me and found some one new i was doing all i am to have a better life but i always pictured my life with him now i have to truly live for me and im scared cause i dont like me very much ..and i dont know where to begin

I'm 20 years old I'm a former college student i work as medical receptionist and i'm moving to a new state where i know no one i'm working on having a different life i want what any girl wants to be able to work and fend for myself but at the same time i want a man who could see me as something truly amazing someone who they could love. like every girl i want my prince only mine doesnt ride a white horse but a pickup truck I'll be living in Seattle soon and i wont know any one but i'd love to find some one

I'm a book reading , music loving , intellectual woman and i want some one to see me for me to look at me and see what i have to give i'm not a small skinny girl i have curves and a heart.