Angelazul, 66

Hey...this is the hardest part for me. I never know if I'm saying too much or not enough. Or even if it's all so boring no one would want to talk to me. I was in a relationship, that lasted about 8 years. We talked about marriage, but as you can see, that never happened. The break up could have been better, but it is what it is. I thought I would try to come out of the rut that I was finding myself in. I don't know how to do this anymore and at times I really just want to give up. But then I pick myself up and start over again...hoping that today will be the day that I meet that someone who takes my breath away. I would love to be able to find the one that makes me weak in the knees, by just being around me. One that still makes my heart jump when the phone rings or I hear his name. Some one that puts the butterflies in my tummy when we talk or just think of talking to him. The one that in a very crowed room...would have me seeing only him. I would hope that I could do all the same for him also. I am not a very religious person...but I am spiritual...I believe things happen for a reason, even if we never understand. I know that there are some things that we might want to know, but can't be taught...you just have to know and accept. I also believe in things that have no right to be, but they are..but not with just anyone...it has to be some one special...that's just me. I don't like to talk to someone that has to start out talking about where I'm from or anything that is in my profile. Words shouldn't be just letters typed on paper...they are who we are...what we are...so say what is in your heart and you will never say some thing wrong. I love to pretend that the blank screen infront of you...is your canvas...the use your words to paint me a picture of your story. So tell my your story...but don't waste my time and yours, with saying things that have no meaning....it will end your story even before it has begun. I do believe in the saying "what goes around, comes ar